I must have come here a hundred times since my last blog trying to start my next, But what used to bring me comfort, and what used to come easy..is now hard and painful. As the songs get more meaningful, the writing gets harder.

I've finally faced that i have entered a new stage of whatever the hell it is I'm going through. I'd like to name it "I thought I couldn't hurt anymore....but I was wrong" I am no better than the day my mother died, If anything it is worse, far worse. I've had to have holidays and birthdays whithout her. Something I should have never had to do. My strength is dwindling and the source I always got it from is gone too.

I'll be back when I find it.