There is one specific lyric in this song that is a bit to close to heart. It states
“Breathing in an out is a blessing can’t you see?”
How perfectly a lyric about the simple act of breathing relates to everything that is my new world. As my mother struggled to breathe for weeks, t was hard not to see the everyday normalcy as a true blessing. Breathing, living, loving…it is all quite the blessing.
In the past months it would be oh so easy to be the girl who cries and complains but I do try my hardest to have not become that person. It has never for a moment escaped me that every person I know is hurting for the same reason. Yet it is in no way the same reason. I lost my mother. I did not lose a daughter, sister, friend or caregiver. But, I am surrounded by all these heartbroken people. One of which sit around feeling sorry for themselves. Each and everyone of them is saddened for themselves yet but also for their families and friends.
So I assume this is why it is so very hard for me to try and understand the negativity so many have towards their own lives. There is nothing quite as drowning as reading posts on Facebook. The endless amounts of complaints about boyfriends, school, work, money and of all things…PARENTS, pull me under. It makes me angry most mornings. How dare them all to take for granted how simply good their lives are. How much I yearn for the days my biggest problem is getting a paper done on time.
I suppose that all this may be an unrelenting reminder that life does go on. And although my life is difficult, I am not the only one who has lost a mother and I am certainly better off than many around the world.
NO I am not great. But I’m ok…today at least. I am incomplete, and I always will be, so all I can do at this point is learn to live with my new reality and learn to embrace it. And how to do this? Be happy for those who are still here…as for me I thank my lucky stars that I’m alive and well.
So as this song states with its simple melody and heartfelt words…
"It’ so damn easy to say that life's so hard. Everybody's got their share of battle scars.
As for me I'd like to thank my lucky stars that I'm alive and well
It'd be easy to add up all the pain. And all the dreams you've sat and watch go up in flames. Dwell on the wreckage as it smolders in the rain. But not me... I'm alive"
1 comment:
I loved your blog today and that song is my favorite. I love everything about you but most importantly your strength. It is so easy for people to complain about the "little" things in life and like you it drives me crazy!!!!! People do have to remember that even though life can be challenging, they are healthy, their loved ones are healthy and we are all here today. What I am grateful for everyday is that I wake up and I am here not matter how messed up my day is......Its sad that in order for people to not take life for granted they experience unfair things, but it just makes people that much stronger. Like I have told you so many times before I LOVE U and I am so grateful to have you in my life.
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