to laura love ana

This morning Ana Rose is here. She's being a little moody but hey she's five. After a few minutes of neglecting WallE she came back in my room with a note. It is noting more than some scribbles but the child recited it exactly the same ten times. So i decided to bring out the camera.




Last night, two of the last three daycare kids spent the night with Kyle and I. To me these kids are the untouchables. They will forever hold a spot in my heart. There is something about them being the very last kids in a daycare with such a legacy that makes them that much more part of the legacy.

I love spending time with them. Maybe it's the Laura in me, but the child in them calms my soul.

But it is their honesty about their emotions that I find most comforting. When Ana is around and someone is here that doesn't know her i often have to tell them "She's very open with her feelings." because many times she'll come out of Laura's room and say "Ok, talked to Laura, she misses you and says hi." and goes about her day.

They talk about her constantly. They fought last night about whether or not she can see them or if she can hear them when they talk to her. And in the bath they complained about how Laura would have gave them toys but shes passed away now so I have to be the one to go get them. (They play the sympathy card well)

Their love for 'Laura', like so many before them is so deep. They adored her and miss her greatly. It's been an adjustment to say the least. For them and for me. I see them at least once a week, many times opting to take Ana for the day (before kindergarten starts next year)

One day the two of us were watching "UP" and as the lady sat dying in her hospital bed Ana asked "Is she dying, like Laura?" and when I responded with a yes she continued ...

"I wish I could go in her room and talk to her, I wish she wasn't at the doctors alot, I wish she could breath by herself and I wish she could make me lunch again. That's what I would do if I was a wizard....And it's ok that you wear her sweats because you miss her and you want to feel close to her. Can I do your hair like your mom did when you were little? I'll do it and I'll take care of you until Laura comes back...after I'm a wizard, or until Chad finds Harry Lotter (yes, Lotter)"

I'm telling you- the spirit in a child, the one my mom found long ago and held onto, is that of a true angel.