In the face of a child lies the love and lessons of those who surround them. I state with pride that there is a great possibility that I have helped put smiles on many young faces. In the early stages of life it is probable that a child brings just as many smiles to those around them as they bring to the child.
I have said before that the birth of a child is nothing short of a miracle. Let me say now that if a child is a miracle-the love surrounding one is a phenomenon. Bonds with children can be be made for so many different amazing reasons. Whether relation, friendship, or just plain connection is felt to a child, the relationship with one is filled with laughter, joy and unconditional love.
Well at least it should be. In any instance I have been apart of, the family of a newborn is overjoyed in the occurrence. Flowers are sent to the hospital only to be followed by an overflowing amount of guests both at the hospital and at home. Houses are decorated in either pink or blue and itty bitty outfits are given in the dozens. I had never known anyone to do anything less.
It is beyond any thought I have ever had, how any family member be it a father, uncle, aunt, grandparent or anyone else - can choose to completely ignore a birth of a child or there after - the existence. Without knowing why or how, I can only speculates that reasons for such hostility can only be because of past events. But there is not a single dilemma that couldn’t be resolved in order to be part of the life of such a precious child.And although you share your love with one, you have left one behind. I can’t imagine a much lower place to be or a more repulsive trait to hold. You must agree since you yourself hide behind lies and can't bare to share the truth.
Now, in the face of that child, the love and the lessons of those who surround her will forever shine. And don’t get it twisted the face is glowing from the love. There is no shortage by any means. And for this reason, it is not the child that sorrow should be felt but for the those who have made the choice not to participate. And to those who have participated, she is better because of it.
Its quite disgusting to me that I am barely family and I CHOSE to be a part of what you CHOSE to ignore.
And damn-are you missing out.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
All Summer Long
It was 2008
My thoughts were short my hair was long
Caught somewhere between a girl and woman
He was 23 and we were always in between
It was summer time in northern California
It was graduation celebrations and playing wii into the night
It was summer of love and inevitable goodbyes
It’s the simple things in life like when and where
We were always on the Internet
But man I never will forget his face when Eva came walking in
And we were trying different things, we were yelling funny things
Testing our love all damn summer long
Sippin patron out the bottle, not thinking bout tomorrow
He was singing “I like the bartender” all summer long
Texting all the time – tryin to be Carrie
Worried bout our Mr. Big’s all night long
She’s always had a spot inside my soul
We’d work all the time but couldn’t wait for night to come
To lay down and watch some SATC
While we were trying different things we were wearing funny things
Getting stuck in the city all night long
Sipping everything out the bottle
never a thought about tomorrow
Singing every damn song all summer long
Nothing seemed as strange
As when the leaves began to change
Or how our moms thought those days would never in
Sometimes I hear that song and start to sing along
and worry bout the one we left behind
and we were doin all new things and we were sayin funny things
chillin in the garage listening to our favorite song
sippin beer out the cup – all the way until tomorrow
singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Cause YOU KNOW WE WERE SINGING
"SWEET HOME ALABAMA" ALL SUMMER LONG
My thoughts were short my hair was long
Caught somewhere between a girl and woman
He was 23 and we were always in between
It was summer time in northern California
It was graduation celebrations and playing wii into the night
It was summer of love and inevitable goodbyes
It’s the simple things in life like when and where
We were always on the Internet
But man I never will forget his face when Eva came walking in
And we were trying different things, we were yelling funny things
Testing our love all damn summer long
Sippin patron out the bottle, not thinking bout tomorrow
He was singing “I like the bartender” all summer long
Pouring sangria in the class – always talking trash
Rocking our flip flops all night long
They’ll forever hold a spot inside my soul
We’d have aching feet- we couldn’t wait for night to come
To hit that bar and play some rock and roll
Making cards and saving weddings from NYC to Cali
While we were quoting Carrie Bradshaw – and writing funny things
They were getting hungry and eating their favorite cheese,
Sippin juice squeeze out the bottle, never thinking bout tomorrow
Singing Tim McGraw all summer long
Rocking our flip flops all night long
They’ll forever hold a spot inside my soul
We’d have aching feet- we couldn’t wait for night to come
To hit that bar and play some rock and roll
Making cards and saving weddings from NYC to Cali
While we were quoting Carrie Bradshaw – and writing funny things
They were getting hungry and eating their favorite cheese,
Sippin juice squeeze out the bottle, never thinking bout tomorrow
Singing Tim McGraw all summer long
Texting all the time – tryin to be Carrie
Worried bout our Mr. Big’s all night long
She’s always had a spot inside my soul
We’d work all the time but couldn’t wait for night to come
To lay down and watch some SATC
While we were trying different things we were wearing funny things
Getting stuck in the city all night long
Sipping everything out the bottle
never a thought about tomorrow
Singing every damn song all summer long
It was 2008
My suit was small their trunks were long
Caught somewhere between smoke and fire
We were playing boggle getting caught in Murphy beds
It was our time in clear lake
With mom loving the ducks and in us in the boat all day
Leaving came way to soon
We were eating different things we were meeting funny things
It was 2008
Our days were short our nights were long
Caught somewhere between LA and Alabama
They were 20 and bout to leave
It was our summer in northern California
Splashing in the hot tub, writing papers on the couch
It’s the simple things in life like fam and friends
What fun you can have on the Internet
But man i never will forget when phelps won that race
My suit was small their trunks were long
Caught somewhere between smoke and fire
We were playing boggle getting caught in Murphy beds
It was our time in clear lake
With mom loving the ducks and in us in the boat all day
Leaving came way to soon
We were eating different things we were meeting funny things
It was 2008
Our days were short our nights were long
Caught somewhere between LA and Alabama
They were 20 and bout to leave
It was our summer in northern California
Splashing in the hot tub, writing papers on the couch
It’s the simple things in life like fam and friends
What fun you can have on the Internet
But man i never will forget when phelps won that race
And they were playing beer pong all night long- drinking funny things
Watchin movies all the time
Sippin who knows what out the bottle
trying not thinking bout tomorrow
Singing sweet home Alabama all summer long
Watchin movies all the time
Sippin who knows what out the bottle
trying not thinking bout tomorrow
Singing sweet home Alabama all summer long
Nothing seemed as strange
As when the leaves began to change
Or how our moms thought those days would never in
Sometimes I hear that song and start to sing along
and worry bout the one we left behind
and we were doin all new things and we were sayin funny things
chillin in the garage listening to our favorite song
sippin beer out the cup – all the way until tomorrow
singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Cause YOU KNOW WE WERE SINGING
"SWEET HOME ALABAMA" ALL SUMMER LONG
a forEVA Love
The confession must be made. I have fallen in love. Not with the man that I gave my heart to so long ago, but his new niece- my niece. The excitement began the moment I found out his sister was pregnant, the admiration started when I heard she was born and the adoring began when I saw her first photo. Soon after that the anticipation started, and grew. Four long months later it was time we met.As I sat eyes on her I felt as though I already knew her. She was amazing – perfect in fact. It was as though a picture was painted as the perfect child for her parents. Skin so perfect, hair so soft and a laugh to die for.
A connection was made it may even be called a bond. One I wasn’t sure would happen.
I adore many children for different reason and in different ways but this was the first of its kind. Others I feel a sense of friendship with almost as though were in the same generation. But with this new child I obtained Auntie status. And it kicked in fast. I felt such an urge of protectiveness and a rush of emotion filled with being involved in the “village”.
And although there is no ring on my finger or no legal binding that makes her my family it is an unspoken truth that a niece to me she is. I began to think of the relationship I have not with my blood aunts and Uncles but that of those who they have married. I look forward to having the type of relationship with her that I have with my aunts and uncles husbands and wives. I have amazing relationships with those Aunts and Uncles, many of which I have known just as long as their other halves. In the mix my Uncle has become a father. I have an aunt I feel that I could go to with anything at anytime and although I have lost another member of that elite group let it be known she meant the world to me. These people have shaped who I am and to them it never mattered that I wasn’t their blood, I am their family and they have been fantastic Aunts and Uncles throughout my entire being.
So why is it that I have fallen so hard for this child. Is it because of the love I have for her Uncle? Is it because of the friendship I share with her mother and the many lessons I have learned from her or is it because I have become so close to the family as a whole.
Whatever it was, everyone around her felt it. In her first visit home she brought a smile to everyone’s face and a joy to all their hearts. We had all waited so long to meet her and she was above and beyond what any of us could have imagined.
I’m not quite sure what it is, but I can tell you that when it was time to leave her, I left a piece of my heart with her. Suddenly New York seemed further a way than it had ever had before. I knew not knowing her was hard but knowing her and not being able to see her may prove to be impossible.
And regardless of the status of my Auntieness or where my relationship may bring me in the future a piece of my heart will always be hers.
I will love her forEVA more.
Hate
I met this man when I was 15 years old,
What I hate most is that he has no soul.
He walks into lives as though he belongs there.
Too often enough the soul is unaware.
He kills with not discretion or remorse
He quickly comes in with his massive force.
He takes futures, makes the strong weak
Changing lives as well as their physique
This man is capable of the worst
Frequently taking the young first
His fault alone, the reason for my tears
His selfish ways - stole her years
At 15 we met and he tore me apart
17 he came again and ripped out my heart
No other force alive has made me hate
Yet he leaves no room for any such debate
Some have beat him and come out on top
Those survivors inspire me to not stop
Nothing much we can do with talk
And this- this is why I walk
As many lives as he has taken
We continue to fight, don’t be mistaken
If he comes after another
We will fight him with each other
We’ll face him with faith and hope
And will refuse to fall down that dark slope.
He is the reason we cover up in the sun.
The reason December 31st and October 4th are no fun
The reason he couldn’t see me play
The reason I miss her everyday
The reason this year our leader will be missing
The reason we sit around reminiscing
He is the reason why we walk
Why to the track we flock
He is who makes us say
“We’ll get him next year”
that was last year.
His name . . .is Mr. Cancer.
Dedicated to Sharon Miller. My friend who gave Mr. Cancer a real run for his money.
In memory of
Frank “The Milkman” Parella., Marilyn Parella, Mary and Jim Howard.
In honor of Michele Gribi
And with great pride as always a great thanks to Team Yellow.
What I hate most is that he has no soul.
He walks into lives as though he belongs there.
Too often enough the soul is unaware.
He kills with not discretion or remorse
He quickly comes in with his massive force.
He takes futures, makes the strong weak
Changing lives as well as their physique
This man is capable of the worst
Frequently taking the young first
His fault alone, the reason for my tears
His selfish ways - stole her years
At 15 we met and he tore me apart
17 he came again and ripped out my heart
No other force alive has made me hate
Yet he leaves no room for any such debate
Some have beat him and come out on top
Those survivors inspire me to not stop
Nothing much we can do with talk
And this- this is why I walk
As many lives as he has taken
We continue to fight, don’t be mistaken
If he comes after another
We will fight him with each other
We’ll face him with faith and hope
And will refuse to fall down that dark slope.
He is the reason we cover up in the sun.
The reason December 31st and October 4th are no fun
The reason he couldn’t see me play
The reason I miss her everyday
The reason this year our leader will be missing
The reason we sit around reminiscing
He is the reason why we walk
Why to the track we flock
He is who makes us say
“We’ll get him next year”
that was last year.
His name . . .is Mr. Cancer.
Dedicated to Sharon Miller. My friend who gave Mr. Cancer a real run for his money.
In memory of
Frank “The Milkman” Parella., Marilyn Parella, Mary and Jim Howard.
In honor of Michele Gribi
And with great pride as always a great thanks to Team Yellow.
Valentines Day
It is once again February 14th and love is in the air. The subtle signs are everywhere. A little more red, a lot more flowers and the glow on the girls face a few girls have glow
There are more theories about Valentines day than any other day of the year. The romantics explain how it is an ancient Christian and Roman holiday honoring St. valentine himself. But all the party poopers go on and on (and on) about how it was the gift card company who made it up in hope of profit (it worked)
The truth is- history aside, the holiday is corny and at times laughable but super exciting and enjoyable. Millions of people are sending flowers and candy to their loved ones. Not only wives and girlfriends receive gifts but mothers and family and friend. Children express their affection for peers thru the “perfect” boxed valentines that they themselves picked out. Valentine’s day is adorable and one can’t help but smile.
And yet so many people make the day a living hell. On a day with such themed enthusiasm there are so many angry people. Boyfriends complaining how expensive it is girlfriends complaining about how there man didn’t get them enough, so many people complaining about being single and others just plain complaining.
Valentine’s day must be the biggest pity party of the year. SO to everyone who likes to rain on all the happy valentine’s parade- don’t do it.
If your un happily single that doesn’t give you the right to ruin it for everyone else. And news flash being single isn’t the worst thing in the world. Things could be a whole lot worse. So try focusing on the people who you do love and the people who love you. There are people who don’t have anyone to wish them a happy day. Send flowers to your mother, call your grandma send a corny card to your brother and but some candy for your friends.
Seize the day. Give into the corn and make the day as fun and love filled as you possibly can.
There are more theories about Valentines day than any other day of the year. The romantics explain how it is an ancient Christian and Roman holiday honoring St. valentine himself. But all the party poopers go on and on (and on) about how it was the gift card company who made it up in hope of profit (it worked)
The truth is- history aside, the holiday is corny and at times laughable but super exciting and enjoyable. Millions of people are sending flowers and candy to their loved ones. Not only wives and girlfriends receive gifts but mothers and family and friend. Children express their affection for peers thru the “perfect” boxed valentines that they themselves picked out. Valentine’s day is adorable and one can’t help but smile.
And yet so many people make the day a living hell. On a day with such themed enthusiasm there are so many angry people. Boyfriends complaining how expensive it is girlfriends complaining about how there man didn’t get them enough, so many people complaining about being single and others just plain complaining.
Valentine’s day must be the biggest pity party of the year. SO to everyone who likes to rain on all the happy valentine’s parade- don’t do it.
If your un happily single that doesn’t give you the right to ruin it for everyone else. And news flash being single isn’t the worst thing in the world. Things could be a whole lot worse. So try focusing on the people who you do love and the people who love you. There are people who don’t have anyone to wish them a happy day. Send flowers to your mother, call your grandma send a corny card to your brother and but some candy for your friends.
Seize the day. Give into the corn and make the day as fun and love filled as you possibly can.
Irreplaceable
It seems in high school you have many friends and then after graduation you lose a few and after a couple years there are only a few you care to keep in touch with but if you are lucky enough to have gone thru those years with real friends or at least one amazing friend that friendship is one of a kind.
Friendships acquired thru life are much like relationships. Although monotony is not necessary one must be particularly careful when choosing those they pick to share secrets with. I myself have had different friends come in and out of my life some longer than other but very few remain. I may have many friends but not many great friends.
A friend is hard
to find a good friend is rare but a great friend is almost impossible to come by. A friend you can trust with everything and the friend whose been there thru it all that one friend who knows the truth behind agape love- that is the friend whom is irreplaceable.
The greatest of all friends at some point becomes part of you. The trust you have for one another is one you can only find within your own family and so the word friend is no longer strong enough to describe your relationship and even sister seems too unfitting. It is this person who has become your other half. And although tough times were had there is no one else you would rather talk to at the end of the day, no one else you want helping you pick out a birthday outfit and no one else but her would you want standing by your side when it means the most.
Because no one else gets you in quite the same way. A real friend, a true friend , your BEST friend is there to bring you out of the dark and knows just what to say before it even needs to be said. And there is no other friend you would do as much for either. For this friend you have kept every secret and covered every lie. You have stood by her decisions when NO ONE else has and you can see when Aiden just isn’t right…It is this friend you would give anything for. This is the friend that you not only have agape love for but was there when you first found out what it meant.
This friend is IRREPLACEABLE.
Friendships acquired thru life are much like relationships. Although monotony is not necessary one must be particularly careful when choosing those they pick to share secrets with. I myself have had different friends come in and out of my life some longer than other but very few remain. I may have many friends but not many great friends.
A friend is hard
to find a good friend is rare but a great friend is almost impossible to come by. A friend you can trust with everything and the friend whose been there thru it all that one friend who knows the truth behind agape love- that is the friend whom is irreplaceable.The greatest of all friends at some point becomes part of you. The trust you have for one another is one you can only find within your own family and so the word friend is no longer strong enough to describe your relationship and even sister seems too unfitting. It is this person who has become your other half. And although tough times were had there is no one else you would rather talk to at the end of the day, no one else you want helping you pick out a birthday outfit and no one else but her would you want standing by your side when it means the most.
Because no one else gets you in quite the same way. A real friend, a true friend , your BEST friend is there to bring you out of the dark and knows just what to say before it even needs to be said. And there is no other friend you would do as much for either. For this friend you have kept every secret and covered every lie. You have stood by her decisions when NO ONE else has and you can see when Aiden just isn’t right…It is this friend you would give anything for. This is the friend that you not only have agape love for but was there when you first found out what it meant.
This friend is IRREPLACEABLE.
Remember the Spartans
As I walked on to the field for Varsity try-outs as a freshman year I did it with only one person I knew. The other girls on the field were merely competition and as a new face I was nothing more than fresh meat. As the week of tryouts came to an end five freshmen were chosen and a new team was born.My first year of being a Spartan was marked by defeat and disappointment. The second year marked the departure of all but one of the freshman I had originally joined the team with. And this was the year that a bunch of girls became a team.
A team is so much more than a group of girls kicking a ball around every day after school. It is a group of friends that are more like sisters. During the day at school each girl may hang out with different people and may bicker during practice but once on the field it is all for one and one for all. There is no group of people that continuously fight for the same cause. Together each individual practices to become great and plays to win. And through all that a bond is made. A bond unlike any other.
A Spartan is defined as courageous in the face of pain, danger, or adversity. And as the P.V.H.S Ladies Spartans Soccer team we came together over my years in high school and became a family. We showed our courage every time we stepped on the field and we consoled each other each time we played our hearts out and failed to come out on top.
I played my four years and now that my team and myself are gone there is a new group of Spartans that takes the field every week and I wish them all the same memories my team and I had. From day one when I stepped on to that field with only one person I knew and entered a group of girls I didn’t know. After my final game I walked off the field with the same girl, now we stood as co-captains saying good-bye to the “group” that had become our family.
Now every year we go back to that field and play an Alumni game against the new team. The experience brings us back together once a year for a reunion like no other because in what other reunion do you get to do the same thing you did with your old friends all over again. We go out and give those young girls a run for the money in the spirit of a good time. But although we all start off the day complaining about how out of shape we are and how we are just going to have fun, as soon as we hit that field we are a team once again. We go all out and take it just as serious as the games we played as students. It is a rush that can only happen when a family gets together and does what they do best. Because no matter how long we have been apart when we come back we are a team again. And as Spartans we play with courage in the face of pain, danger or adversity.
Because whether we have a game every year or not we will always remember the Spartans.
God Bless Us Everyone
Christmas time is here the waiting is done! The amazing December days are upon us. The lights and decorations are up and the spirit is in the air. It’s the season to be jolly so deck the halls and give thanks for all that we have. Because what we have is amazing and it is intensified over the Christmas season. The days that are approaching are filed with children’s laughter, delicious candy canes and fabulous memories. The days are filled with joy and anticipation of the joyful celebration and were counting the days till it is Christmas day. So fill your heart with love and joy and share the warmth of the holiday. Just try to remember that special feeling that everyone feels on Christmas. It is so easy to do just open your heart and the spirit will come to you.
And although Christmas is not entirely about gifts I must admit that it’s a fantastic feeling to be able to give. Being able to give a wonderful gift to a loved one is an amazing feeling but don’t underestimate the gift of love. A simple hug this holiday is considered a holiday hug and telling someone you love them is seen as holiday spirit, anything you do to show you care is just so appreciated during the holiday season because the magic is in the air. I love Christmas but what I love more is that people love Christmas. It’s so great to see so many happy people and this is the one day where everyone acts like a child- a happy child.
I wish you all a very merry Christmas. I hope it’s a good one. I wish for you that it is full of meals with loved ones, plenty of music, perfect gifts for all, and memories to last a lifetime. And please don’t forget that there are so many that are unable to share in such festivities this holiday season and anything you can do to help them is nothing short of a holiday miracle. God has blessed us with such an amazing holiday that we can celebrate him by showing love for one another and being thankful for all that we have.
Here’s to family and friends..its good to be here again
And although Christmas is not entirely about gifts I must admit that it’s a fantastic feeling to be able to give. Being able to give a wonderful gift to a loved one is an amazing feeling but don’t underestimate the gift of love. A simple hug this holiday is considered a holiday hug and telling someone you love them is seen as holiday spirit, anything you do to show you care is just so appreciated during the holiday season because the magic is in the air. I love Christmas but what I love more is that people love Christmas. It’s so great to see so many happy people and this is the one day where everyone acts like a child- a happy child.
I wish you all a very merry Christmas. I hope it’s a good one. I wish for you that it is full of meals with loved ones, plenty of music, perfect gifts for all, and memories to last a lifetime. And please don’t forget that there are so many that are unable to share in such festivities this holiday season and anything you can do to help them is nothing short of a holiday miracle. God has blessed us with such an amazing holiday that we can celebrate him by showing love for one another and being thankful for all that we have.
Here’s to family and friends..its good to be here again
Mr. Small
Mr. Small.
If it is Mr. Big is perfect for a woman than his opposite is Mr. Small. And what may be worse than having your heart broken by him, may be watching your friend have her heart broken by him. Having a friend whom is involved with a jerk boyfriend must be one of lives worst features. Not only are you forced to deal with the fact your friend is being treated like shit but you must also recognize she is allowing it to happen.
We’ve all been here. He isn’t simply the boyfriend you can’t stand or the guy that loves her but acts up. This guy is ALL bad. The only thing he does have, is game. He some how keeps her coming back. This is particularly hard because as a friend you must do everything in your power not to judge and to keep your mouth shut. It can become increasingly hard as you are trying to be there for your friend at the same time you want to scream at her. This man has complete control and when she finally does come to the conclusion that this man is bad for her, he switches the game up.
At this point as a friend you may be over it. It is draining and you are disgusted with the fact that you hate him. Yes, you are completely aware that she goes along with it, but this is your friend. As much pain as she has put her-self thru it is at his discretion when it is dealt. Now for you, this may be hard to understand, for many women the thought of being this wrapped around a man is hard to imagine, to others it is all too familiar. But as hard as this may be you have to be there for your friend. Because there is absolutely no way she will get through it without you. No matter how stupid she is acting, you have to listen. It is you duty as a friend. She would do it for you and you have to let her complain at midnight, be there for her while she bitches for hours and you must give her a shoulder to cry on.
And if you have abandoned her, apologize. Don’t apologize for having an opinion or for telling her how it is, but apologize for not being there. As crazy as she may have acted, that’s your crazy friend, so take care of her so that one day she will never let this happen again.
Because in the grand scheme of things, their time together will be small compared to her life. Their relationship will seem small to what she will experience. He will be just a small part of who she becomes. He will not become the reason for her strength . . . he will be nothing more than a small spark that helped start the fire of her strength. He is just small.
And as dumb as she may have been for putting up with his dumb ass the only one dumber than both of them is his new girlfriend.
And let me apologize for not being there.
If it is Mr. Big is perfect for a woman than his opposite is Mr. Small. And what may be worse than having your heart broken by him, may be watching your friend have her heart broken by him. Having a friend whom is involved with a jerk boyfriend must be one of lives worst features. Not only are you forced to deal with the fact your friend is being treated like shit but you must also recognize she is allowing it to happen.
We’ve all been here. He isn’t simply the boyfriend you can’t stand or the guy that loves her but acts up. This guy is ALL bad. The only thing he does have, is game. He some how keeps her coming back. This is particularly hard because as a friend you must do everything in your power not to judge and to keep your mouth shut. It can become increasingly hard as you are trying to be there for your friend at the same time you want to scream at her. This man has complete control and when she finally does come to the conclusion that this man is bad for her, he switches the game up.
At this point as a friend you may be over it. It is draining and you are disgusted with the fact that you hate him. Yes, you are completely aware that she goes along with it, but this is your friend. As much pain as she has put her-self thru it is at his discretion when it is dealt. Now for you, this may be hard to understand, for many women the thought of being this wrapped around a man is hard to imagine, to others it is all too familiar. But as hard as this may be you have to be there for your friend. Because there is absolutely no way she will get through it without you. No matter how stupid she is acting, you have to listen. It is you duty as a friend. She would do it for you and you have to let her complain at midnight, be there for her while she bitches for hours and you must give her a shoulder to cry on.
And if you have abandoned her, apologize. Don’t apologize for having an opinion or for telling her how it is, but apologize for not being there. As crazy as she may have acted, that’s your crazy friend, so take care of her so that one day she will never let this happen again.
Because in the grand scheme of things, their time together will be small compared to her life. Their relationship will seem small to what she will experience. He will be just a small part of who she becomes. He will not become the reason for her strength . . . he will be nothing more than a small spark that helped start the fire of her strength. He is just small.
And as dumb as she may have been for putting up with his dumb ass the only one dumber than both of them is his new girlfriend.
And let me apologize for not being there.
Mr. Big
Mr Big.
It took Carrie Bradshaw and Mr. Big 6 years to finally realize they belonged together. They both made stupid decisions and made huge mistakes. They hurt each other greatly but always grew from it. The only thing that made up for the fact that he could be a complete ass hole and she blew everything out of proportion was their passion. The watched each other get with new people and try to have new relationships and all though they have found better people, never were the people better for them. The passion and undenying love brought these two people together. Mr. Big and Carrie looked as though they should never get back together. He was a complete jerk at times. And it was hard for them to make it work but when they did it was amazing. It was beyond comparison.
It is amazing to me that the few people in this world that are actually meant for each other try their best to screw it up. I know countless amounts of people that are trying to make something work that just never will. And then I know people who have made it work. But what about the people who belong together and are doing everything to fight it? Yes it’s true everyone around them thinks that they shouldn’t be together. Everyone says they fight too much and they’ve hurt each other to much to ever make it work and that they just need to move on. Yet there is something there. Something immeasurable. The love that won’t leave because it is so real and so fantastic that they can’ ignore. They try to hide it but its that love you can’t hide from your best friend. Both of them know it and are scared to death. And yeah maybe they fight, but would they really fight that much if they didn’t care. And like Carrie and big they’ve made mistakes but who doesn’t. And a definite bad choice was made but it was what seemed right and the greatest lesson was learned. And yeah they can be so horrible to each other but when its good its amazing. Fantastic at that. A love people wait their entire lives for. So much passion and love that its overwhelming to even think about. It is beyond comparison.
Why is it that if two people love each other that isn’t enough. There are millions of people fighting for love that isn’t this real and yet when two people find it they let it go. The worlds greatest treasure is to be loved. Stop letting everything get in the way. Take they love live in its glory and find your happiness.
And as for my Carrie and Mr. Big, yes they have hurt each other but it would have never hurt that bad if they didn’t completely love each other. Now because of a mistake , because of Aiden and because of pride they are apart. She knows what she wants and he acts like he doesn’t. But he knows. He definitely knows. So give in. The worst is behind you, there is only good to come. So go get my girl.
So Called Friend
I try to listen and not care about the people in my past because there is a reason why they didn’t make it to the future. It is a noble concept on the surface but upon examination it’s stupid. The people in your past DO matter. There is a reason they were once your friend and once they are no longer there, it hurts.
For the friends that made it to your present, they feel lucky. Any true friend feels lucky to be so. It is those who don’t feel lucky to be your friends, that don’t belong in a friendship with you. It is those friends that hurt you. It is those friends you will give your ALL to and in turn don’t invite you. You probably always knew on some level that they would hurt you. They’ve done it before to you and to others. But it is them that you stick your neck out for and as thanks get blamed. A real friend apologizes when they are wrong and a true friend makes the first move to get things back how they used to be. A friend tells something you should know, even when it may hurt you. But what a real friend doesn’t do is purposely exclude and hurt you. That is when it is finally time to give up. There is no room in your life for so-called friends. There are far too many fabulous people in this world to spend your time worrying about one that has done you wrong. Let go of the anger and the hostility. and say good-bye to your friend. The few friends you considered a sweet escape are now fewer. Let them know that they’ve hurt you and that that they had FRIEND. A true friend, a friend that treasures your past and is thankful for the good times but you must now move on and that they are now, like many others, in your past.
Please don’t confuse hurt with weakness because I’m mad as hell. And the messages being sent are heard loud and clear. Those who are not invited are clearly not welcomed it’s just funny to think you thought they didn’t have my back.
The amazing thing about real friends is that they are an extension of your family. Treasure them. They are hard to come by. Those few ride or die friends that have your back to the end, the ones that stick by your side when old friends try to hurt you, those are the ones to hold on too. Let them know what they mean to you and be thankful because a real friend will be there till the end no matter what happens in between.
When it comes down to it some friends will drive on your birthday and some just won’t.
For the friends that made it to your present, they feel lucky. Any true friend feels lucky to be so. It is those who don’t feel lucky to be your friends, that don’t belong in a friendship with you. It is those friends that hurt you. It is those friends you will give your ALL to and in turn don’t invite you. You probably always knew on some level that they would hurt you. They’ve done it before to you and to others. But it is them that you stick your neck out for and as thanks get blamed. A real friend apologizes when they are wrong and a true friend makes the first move to get things back how they used to be. A friend tells something you should know, even when it may hurt you. But what a real friend doesn’t do is purposely exclude and hurt you. That is when it is finally time to give up. There is no room in your life for so-called friends. There are far too many fabulous people in this world to spend your time worrying about one that has done you wrong. Let go of the anger and the hostility. and say good-bye to your friend. The few friends you considered a sweet escape are now fewer. Let them know that they’ve hurt you and that that they had FRIEND. A true friend, a friend that treasures your past and is thankful for the good times but you must now move on and that they are now, like many others, in your past.
Please don’t confuse hurt with weakness because I’m mad as hell. And the messages being sent are heard loud and clear. Those who are not invited are clearly not welcomed it’s just funny to think you thought they didn’t have my back.
The amazing thing about real friends is that they are an extension of your family. Treasure them. They are hard to come by. Those few ride or die friends that have your back to the end, the ones that stick by your side when old friends try to hurt you, those are the ones to hold on too. Let them know what they mean to you and be thankful because a real friend will be there till the end no matter what happens in between.
When it comes down to it some friends will drive on your birthday and some just won’t.
Thanksgiving
As many people do, I went home for Thanksgiving. Being a large family, we are lucky enough to live within driving distance of each other so it is never a huge deal to get together. The only person who had to fly home was my brother who flew in from UCLA. It was when I went to pick him up from the airport that I discovered thanksgiving.
It was an amazing blessing disguised as a burden. It was holiday traffic. For days I had dreaded going to the Oakland Airport because of the traffic but as I was sitting in it I realized that there was this immense amount of traffic because all of these people wanted to be with their families for thanksgiving. What a fabulous discovery. Airports are disgustingly packed because everyone wants to go home.
And when they are home Thanksgiving day is like no other. Thanksgiving is truly all about loved ones. Whether family or friends, thanksgiving dinner brings together the important people in ones life. Unlike other Holidays, this holiday is completely yours. It doesn’t belong to shopping, decorations or presents. There are no costumes or eggs or bunnies, Thanksgiving is you-your family and memories. It is of course a day to give thanks, and many might say that Americans shouldn’t need a holiday to give thanks, that they should do it everyday. But I think that anyone willing to travel during a holiday to get home is very thankful for their family. In a country and culture often critized for not being family oriented I must say that Thanksgiving is a time to rival that theory. These people are not coming to town to bring or receive presents, and yes the food is fantastic, but they would come for Pizza.
So next time holiday traffic is a burden to you, simply remember that it is family that is causing them to be in that vehicle, so be happy that all around you are people who just can’t wait to go home.
It was an amazing blessing disguised as a burden. It was holiday traffic. For days I had dreaded going to the Oakland Airport because of the traffic but as I was sitting in it I realized that there was this immense amount of traffic because all of these people wanted to be with their families for thanksgiving. What a fabulous discovery. Airports are disgustingly packed because everyone wants to go home.
And when they are home Thanksgiving day is like no other. Thanksgiving is truly all about loved ones. Whether family or friends, thanksgiving dinner brings together the important people in ones life. Unlike other Holidays, this holiday is completely yours. It doesn’t belong to shopping, decorations or presents. There are no costumes or eggs or bunnies, Thanksgiving is you-your family and memories. It is of course a day to give thanks, and many might say that Americans shouldn’t need a holiday to give thanks, that they should do it everyday. But I think that anyone willing to travel during a holiday to get home is very thankful for their family. In a country and culture often critized for not being family oriented I must say that Thanksgiving is a time to rival that theory. These people are not coming to town to bring or receive presents, and yes the food is fantastic, but they would come for Pizza.
So next time holiday traffic is a burden to you, simply remember that it is family that is causing them to be in that vehicle, so be happy that all around you are people who just can’t wait to go home.
Family
Since Famous Stars and Straps introduced their “Family” logo in their fall 2006 line, I have been a one woman advertisement for the company. I have the sticker on my car, keychain with my keys, 4 shirts, a belt buckle and a necklace on the way. As many other people I love the idea of letting the world know I’m all about family. But what’s amazing about my family is that we all feel that way. All of my cousins also have the shirt and when we wear it we think of each other. We all love each other and put each other first.
I have thought for a long time that my family is like no other. Besides being loud and opinionated we are extremely close. I am closer with my cousins than most of my friends. We have all grown up so close in distance and in relationships. The relationships we all have with each other is like no other. I consider my family my friends. I consider it a high honor for a friend to consider you family but I believe it is a high greater honor to consider your family member a friend. It is when your aunts are like your mom and when your Uncles step in for your dad and when cousins are brothers and sisters, it is then that you realize that family is irreplaceable. You may be able to marry into another one or call your friends family but your family, your real flesh and blood, is REAL. It’s those people you can’t dismiss when they hurt you and it is those people who would do anything for you.
This is not to say that families are perfect. Sisters fight, (boy do they fight) brothers compete, cousins drive you insane and moms will always have opinions, but your sister will always have your back, you’ll always want to kill the girl that hurts your brother, you will go after the girl that put your cousin on blast on Myspace, and as for your mom. well no one messes with your mom. And when you see your brother go to college, two cousins achieving what they want to do, one almost in high school, ones tart kindergarten and one become a starting quarterback, an overwhelming pride comes over you. This is YOUR FAMILY. And so it is YOU. They are just as proud of you as you are of them. It is family that pulls you back up when a car accident pushes you down. It is them that pull together when your grandfather dies, and is them that pulls together even tighter when your aunt passes, and it is definitely them that walk 24 hours every year in memory of the two you’ve lost.
Simply put the love of a family is life’s greatest blessing.
Glory Days
LIFE IN DAN’S CITY refers to the everyday happenings in my life. Life itself though, is what falls between birth and death but it seems that it takes those two major events for us to treasure what happens in between. An average life may be 70 years maybe 90. Not very long by any means but longer than some. Lately it seems like life is being taken after 20 years. How would you live differently if you knew you would only get 20 years and not 70?
It is impossible not to believe in God when a child is born. It is THE most precious miracle that can be experienced. So much possibility lies in that little life. She can become the next president or the next Mia Hamm. The possibilities are endless. But what if somehow we all knew that child only had 20 years to live. How much different would their life be? Would every birthday be amazing, would every holiday be treasured more? Would the small things matter so much? I’m positive everything would be treasured more. This is why many people tell you to live like you were dying or to live everyday like its your last. The fact is that tomorrow is never promised so we all need t live like there is no tomorrow.
If today was your last day alive, would everyone know how you felt about them. Would you have told your mom “I love you” enough. Would your older siblings know how much you look up to them, would your family know they are your world and would your little cousin know how you adore him? Would your boyfriend or girlfriend know how happy they make you, does your best friend know how much you respect them? For most people probably not. So why is it that a certainty of death is the only thing that brings this out. Isn’t it better to give the roses why they can still smell them. These days with cancer and aids and drunk drivers the possibility of your life being taken is to high not to make the most out of your days here,
Life is to short. So have some fun. Love hard. Tell people who matter, that they do. Respect your elders. Learn from your mistakes. And be happy. Live the life that was thought to have so much potential at your birth because you truly never know when tomorrow will not come.
Welcome to the world Eva Lorraine & Alyssa mAe
R.I.P. Casey Chapman
It is impossible not to believe in God when a child is born. It is THE most precious miracle that can be experienced. So much possibility lies in that little life. She can become the next president or the next Mia Hamm. The possibilities are endless. But what if somehow we all knew that child only had 20 years to live. How much different would their life be? Would every birthday be amazing, would every holiday be treasured more? Would the small things matter so much? I’m positive everything would be treasured more. This is why many people tell you to live like you were dying or to live everyday like its your last. The fact is that tomorrow is never promised so we all need t live like there is no tomorrow.
If today was your last day alive, would everyone know how you felt about them. Would you have told your mom “I love you” enough. Would your older siblings know how much you look up to them, would your family know they are your world and would your little cousin know how you adore him? Would your boyfriend or girlfriend know how happy they make you, does your best friend know how much you respect them? For most people probably not. So why is it that a certainty of death is the only thing that brings this out. Isn’t it better to give the roses why they can still smell them. These days with cancer and aids and drunk drivers the possibility of your life being taken is to high not to make the most out of your days here,
Life is to short. So have some fun. Love hard. Tell people who matter, that they do. Respect your elders. Learn from your mistakes. And be happy. Live the life that was thought to have so much potential at your birth because you truly never know when tomorrow will not come.
Welcome to the world Eva Lorraine & Alyssa mAe
R.I.P. Casey Chapman
Life in Dan's City
As New York was served by Carrie Bradshaw once a week, I will try to reveal to you the lessons I have learned, am learning and will learn. Take the structure of a weekly column and minus the sex factor and the fact that Manhattan has more going on then I will ever experience and you have LIFE IN DAN’S CITY. And as Carrie shared her experiences and insight so shall I. It has long been said that that college is the time in ones life that they find out who they are. It is when a person learns so many of life’s lessons and makes most of their mistakes. It is also obviously where the most fun lies. So why not write about them. I’m sure some might journal, and a percentage of those may become a book one day but what good does that do anyone RIGHT NOW. So here it goes.
Today is what we will one day consider our glory years. These years, I have learned, will be full of great friendship, amazing love and immeasurable memories. Of course this I all partnered with lost friendships, failing relationships and bad days. For my self all of the above is true. In this past year alone I have grown from incredible experiences. I was in a car accident, which forced me to take a year off school, and allowed me to find out things about my self I NEVER KNEW. Since then I have experienced the greatest of all loves and the pain of a broken heart. And back again. I have made great friends and lost just as many. I have fell in love with my family all over again. I remain amazed with life and what it brings. The problems I face daily seem so big until I remember the day my Aunt died or the day I Grandpa was taken from me. Suddenly the fact that my life isn’t exactly the way I want it isn’t such a big deal I am realize how it would be torn apart if ANYONE in it was taken away again. It is then I am thankful for each and every one of you.
My family, my friends, my man and my haters- you have all made me who I am today. Whether you have enhanced my life or fucked it up, without you I would not be me. And if I love you, you know it. And if I can’t stand you, you definitely know it. But to all of you, here’s to me writing to you…..CHEERS. See you next week.
Today is what we will one day consider our glory years. These years, I have learned, will be full of great friendship, amazing love and immeasurable memories. Of course this I all partnered with lost friendships, failing relationships and bad days. For my self all of the above is true. In this past year alone I have grown from incredible experiences. I was in a car accident, which forced me to take a year off school, and allowed me to find out things about my self I NEVER KNEW. Since then I have experienced the greatest of all loves and the pain of a broken heart. And back again. I have made great friends and lost just as many. I have fell in love with my family all over again. I remain amazed with life and what it brings. The problems I face daily seem so big until I remember the day my Aunt died or the day I Grandpa was taken from me. Suddenly the fact that my life isn’t exactly the way I want it isn’t such a big deal I am realize how it would be torn apart if ANYONE in it was taken away again. It is then I am thankful for each and every one of you.
My family, my friends, my man and my haters- you have all made me who I am today. Whether you have enhanced my life or fucked it up, without you I would not be me. And if I love you, you know it. And if I can’t stand you, you definitely know it. But to all of you, here’s to me writing to you…..CHEERS. See you next week.
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